Sunday, May 27, 2012

End of Week 9

I am so failing this challenge big time.  :(   But, I did lose a couple pounds this week.  Its too bad I feel like I've lost the same few pounds over and over the whole time.  Sigh...

Goals for the last week will be rough again.  We have tomorrow off school, then one last day.  (I'm already done...I took a personal day Tuesday to go watch my daughter's 8th grade graduation.)  Tuesday will be spent at the awards assembly at the elementary school in the morning, then at 8th grade graduation in the afternoon.  I'll go back to the elementary at the end of the day for the 6th grade "Clap out". 

Then Wednesday morning we'll meet my dad and the rest of the family (step mom, great aunt, brother, half-brother and sister-in-law, their 2 kids (which includes a niece I havent met yet), and sister) at Cedar Point for 2 days.  I'm so excited.  I haven't been there for probably 6 years, and my kids have never been there.  This will probably be our vacation for the summer.  We're taking most of the food, and I'm planning on plenty of water too.

That leaves Friday to get ready for the yard sale on Saturday.  Its also our school auction/raffle/bbq (our one and only fund raiser), so I'll have to work at that for a bit.  Saturday evening I'll finish getting the house ready for my grandpa's 90th b-day party which will be here next Sunday.  Oh, I also have to make all the cupcakes for that too.

Then I hope to have a little time to relax a bit.  I am taking a class the following week for 3 days at our high school, and need to take some college classes this summer, but I really hope things will slow down some.

Hope everyone has a great last week!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

99 Things

I saw this on another blog and thought it was neat.  Its funny how some things are just so different for each of us.

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
unless we count rockband or marching band :)
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland DisneyWORLD
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightening storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
playing the guitar (badly so far)
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
next year I will do this!
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
  when my kids are sick
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping

27. Run a Marathon 

28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
an overnight cruise from Italy to Greece

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
I live in the middle of amish country
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person

39. Gone rock climbing 
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
No but I want to pay for someone's order in the drive thru soon
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
Not for me but with my daughter
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud

54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie 
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching - 
63. Got flowers for no reason -
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma

65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
No but just went to the Holocaust museum in Washington DC
67. Bounced a check
by accident
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
will do this when in NYC next year
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car

83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
not inside
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox

89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby
4 actually
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
 That was fun.  :)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Washington DC (and end of week 8)

I'm home from DC and exhausted.  It was a most fabulous trip!  

We had to be at the middle school at 5am Wednesday morning.  Holy early wake up!  Got all the luggage tagged, buses loaded and pulled out at 6am.  Brenna and I were on the first bus, which was boys and girls.  Girls (all 8 of them) sat in the front, then chaperones, then (smelly) boys in the back, lol.  I wouldn't trade that for anything.  We had the 2 staff members who plan the trip on our bus, so we got the inside scoop to everything.  They were super informative and told us what to make sure we saw when we got to each place.  They'd also tell us stories about the places we were while we walked through or waited in line.
The first official stop (after a bathroom break and lunch in Breezewood) was Gettysburg.  I'll start out by saying that I am in no way a history buff, or even remotely interested in reading about it.  But I could have stayed several days there.  We picked up a tour guide and he told us all about the battle of Gettysburg.  We drove around as he talked, and we'd stop and get off the bus in certain places.  The first place we got out was where the first attack happened, and where General Reynolds was killed (only a few minutes after arriving there).  He pointed out the high points that the union army tried to occupy so as to keep the advantage.
We saw other significant places like Little Round Top (above), Devil's Den, Mead's farm, the peach orchard, etc.  We got to walk around the national cemetery.  This was the place Lincoln gave the Gettysburg Address.  The first person buried there was a guy from Ohio.  There are over 900 graves there of unknown union soldiers.  
We had the tour guide for about 3 1/2 hours, and the time just flew by.  I hope the kids were paying attention, because I learned SO much.  History is just so much better when you can see and feel and "live" it than when you just have to read about it in a history book.
Then it was time for dinner.  We took 150 people into a really nice restaurant where we had a buffet dinner.  Yep, buffet.  This was the second one of the day. 
Bullet holes in Jennie Wade's house

After dinner we had some time to just walk around the town of Gettysburg.  We walked over to Jennie Wade's house.  She was the only civilian to be killed in the Civil War.  There are still bullet holes in the house where she was killed.  

Then came the interesting part.  We went on a ghost walk around town.  We had a guide that took us to different houses/buildings and told us of sightings there.  While we didn't get to experience anything of the paranormal, it was still interesting to hear the stories.
Time to head to the hotel for some much needed sleep.  Of course, we had to wait for the kids to get done journaling/blogging so we could take their phones and keys, so it was at least midnight until we got to bed.  Then up early to be at breakfast by 6:30.  (Yeah, there was not much sleeping on this trip.)
(Breakfast was yet another yummy buffet.  Sigh...)
We started day 2 on the bus to DC.  I think a lot of us took advantage of the 2 hour ride to get a little more sleep in.  Even though we were on charter buses, I didn't think they were all that comfortable, especially for sleeping.  I started the day with a headache, and dozed a bit on the bus, so at least I felt somewhat better by the time we got to DC.
Our first stop was the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum.  We didn't have a lot of time at any of the places we stopped, so we tried to hurry to see as much as we could.  

We left the museum and headed to Arlington National Cemetery.  What an emotional experience.  We walked through the Arlington house (which was where General Lee once lived), then over to the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier.  We saw the changing of the guards---its crazy how much they have to go through for that.  The middle school always gets to lay a wreath there.  If the kids would like to do it, they put their name in a drawing.  Four kids are chosen to do it, along with 3 alternates.  They have to dress up, and they inspect them before they're allowed to do it.  (Hence the alternates...in case of sickness or inappropriate dress)  Brenna was chosen as one of the 4 this year.  They didn't go to Arlington house...they went with another teacher to get their instructions and be inspected.  Brenna said it was a little unnerving at first...they were questioned and such, but the guard ended up being really nice and chatted with them before it was time to go out.
Laying of the wreath


This was actually the most emotional part of the trip for me.  What an honor to get to lay a wreath at the tomb.  Yes, I cried.  Thankfully it was a beautiful sunny day, so I had sunglasses on.  :)  After they laid the wreath, another guard played Taps.  Amazing.
When that was done, we walked over to see where JFK and family are buried.  Then it was time to head to the next place.  On the walk back to the buses, we passed a "hearse".  There were 8 large horses carrying 3 soldiers.  They were pulling a cart with a flag-draped casket on the back.  Such a touching and personal thing to be able to witness.  (We were told they do 28-35 funerals a day there.)

The next stop on the trip was the Library of Congress.  By far the most beautiful building we were in.  I didn't get any pictures inside.  The security is pretty tight there, so I just left my camera on the bus.  We didn't have a lot of time here, so we spent most of our time looking at Thomas Jefferson's library.

WWII Memorial

Then it was off to the WWII memorial.  Every year the middle school raises money to buy wheelchairs to give to the memorial.  When they built it, they had one wheelchair that veterans could borrow.  Since then, our middle school has donated every wheelchair they have there to date.  This year we took 2, which the ranger told us was great timing because they were getting ready to order 3 more.  Such a beautiful memorial. 

It was time for dinner.  We went to yet another buffet.  They let the chaperones go first (since we seem to take so much longer to eat, lol), and when the kids were done, there was a small game room they could entertain themselves in for a bit.  Then they got their glow in the dark shirts from the ghost tour, and we were off for the lighted monument tour.
Once we were on the buses, the leaders handed out glow-necklaces.  Each bus was color coded so we could find our group easily.  (We were red)  The first stop was the Korean memorial.  As we were walking up the sidewalk, a fox ran in front of us and off the other direction.  It was funny to see wildlife like that in the city.
Korean Memorial
I've seen pictures of this memorial, and for me its just creepy.  The engraved wall is pretty cool, but the statues in the garden really just give me the creeps.

Next was the Lincoln Memorial.  Unfortunately the reflecting pool is still under reconstruction.  At our elementary school, the 6th graders have to memorize the Gettysburg Address.  Then they recite it for an unknown judge, and the winner gets to recite it at the community Memorial Day service.  When both the older girls were in 6th grade, they were chosen.  To have a picture of the speech as it is engraved is neat, but to get the full effect of just how huge it is, I took a pic with Brenna standing under it. 





We also did the tourist thing, lol.
Being a tourist :)
























We walked across the street to the Vietnam Wall.  Again, I had seen pictures.  It wasn't what I expected though.  It really is a moving sight to see.  My dad's best friend was killed in Vietnam, so we really wanted to do a rubbing of his name.  We could only find 2 books there, and the page we needed was missing from both, so we found a ranger and got the location.  We were running late, but the teacher was standing behind us and said she didn't interrupt because she could tell we were there with a purpose.










Jefferson Monument

 Next we went to the Jefferson Monument.  This was the only time we got to see the White house.  (When we went to see it Friday night, it was on lock down, so we couldn't get close.)  It was neat to see it lit up across the water though.


We went from there to the FDR memorial.  This was one of my favorites.  I just liked how you had to walk through it, and the waterfall told a story of his presidency in itself.  There were also neat statues and quotes on the walls.  The only thing that I didn't like was that by now it was quite dark, and things weren't lit very well in there.  



We walked around the water to the MLK memorial.  This is brand new.  It was interesting, but I thought he looked really mad in the carving.


Then it was off to the hotel.  We stayed at a really nice hotel.  I found a sticker in the back of the closet with the prices for the rooms.  They started at $799/night!  I sure hope we got some kind of deal.  If not, I'd suggest we stay somewhere cheaper and cut the cost of the trip!  It was nice, but not that nice.  (We couldn't even lower the temp on the a/c!)
It was another late night by the time the kids were done journaling/blogging and back to their rooms.  ***Yawn***


Up early again on day 3 to be at breakfast by 6:30.  Today we started at the Capitol building.  We had tickets to the House of Representatives.  We sat in the balcony, and this is one of the few days they were actually in session.  We heard people requesting amendments, and then they finally voted on one.  There is a timer and yea/nay that shows up on the front of the balcony, and the names of all the representatives appear behind/above where the Speaker of the House sits so you can follow what is going on.  It tells you who voted how.  When we got there, there were maybe 10 people in the room.  As the voting started, there ended up being over 400 people in there.  It was very interesting to see how it all worked, even if I didn't understand what they were voting on.  Someone walked in late, and everyone started chanting, "Vote, vote, vote, vote...".  It turns out this guy is usually one of the first ones to vote, and always rushes people along so they can get done.  This day he was late and they harassed him.  :)  (No pics allowed.)
We also had tickets to the Senate, but they were closed.
We went back outside to meet our representative on the steps of the capitol to have a class picture taken.  That was kinda cool.


From there we went to the Smithsonian American History Museum.  We were late leaving the Capitol, plus we had to have lunch in the museum, so we only had an hour to look around.  Brenna really wanted to see the Star Wars stuff, but that exhibit was under reconstruction so we didn't get to see it.  It was recommended by our leaders to see the Star Spangled Banner exhibit (no pics), and I'm so glad we did.  It told the story of the first flag, and its on display there.  Very cool.


Our next stop was the Holocaust museum.  We had been closed out of that, but at the last minute they had a cancellation and could get us in.  Wow.  The museum is very well done.  Its all in chronological order...you start on the top floor in 1933 when Hitler became chancellor, and work your way through WWII.  Some of it is really graphic.  Some is really sad.  There was a room full of shoes that were left behind in the concentration camps.  What I noticed most about that is the smell.  There were actual bunks from Auchwitz.  Just a really moving experience.


Then it was time for a little shopping.  There are many street vendors and souvenir shops on the same street as Ford's Theatre (where Lincoln was shot).  We got to see that (and the house where they took him where he died), but we didn't get to go into either. 


The National Archives was the next stop.  We had to wait in line a long time, so we had to rush through.  The only things we saw were the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution/Bill of Rights.  I'm not sure what else we would have wanted to see in there, but that was really neat to see such pieces of history.


Then it was time for the kids to have a little fun.  They charter a boat and the kids eat dinner on there and they have a dj and dance.  The chaperones got to go into town (Alexandria, VA) for dinner.  Then it was back on the bus to see the White house (on lock down) and Iwo Jima.  We didn't get to get out there, but we drove around it a couple times.  I was under the impression it was a life size memorial, so I was incredibly shocked to see just how huge it actually is.  


So there is the trip.  It went so fast.  We didn't get to do anything in depth, but at least the kids got a taste of many things.  What a great trip!


Now on to week 8.  Nothing spectacular.  TONS and tons of walking.  On Thursday we walked up and down more steps than I think I've walked the entire rest of the year so far.  My legs are sore!  Food was so so.  I did pretty well on water, as it was hot and we needed to stay hydrated.
For week 9 my plan is to do SBD phase 1.  I'm going to try to be pretty strict this week.  We'll see how it goes.  Still busy...3 more days of school for me, 6 more for the kids.
I have to take the oldest daughter for an abdominal u/s this week as well, as she's still having some health issues. 

Monday, May 14, 2012

(Are we ending week 7?)

End of the week update. 

I did better this week.  I lost a couple pounds finally.  But then I've been moving more.  Its funny how those 2 things work together.  :)
I didnt count calories.  I'm having a hard time with that, but I am still weighing and measuring most things.  I'm also watching portions.
While I didnt get any organized cardio in, I did do crunches on the ball several days, as well as an arm workout.  (The one someone posted from youtube.)

This week is going to be interesting.  I'm not going to set any real goals.  I'm leaving Wednesday at 4:45 am (yikes!) to chaperone the 8th grade trip to Washington DC.  I'm SO excited!  I've never been there, so I'm probably more excited than the kids.
We've already been warned that we'll do a TON of walking, which is good by me!  The only downside is food.  I have NO control over what we eat.  Everything is already paid for, including lunches, so it is what it is.  I can however control how much I eat of whatever it is we get.  So that is my goal.  And LOTS of water.

Hope everyone has a good week!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Just a quick post...

Tonight was the "pops" concert at my daughter's high school.  It was GREAT!  The directors do such a great job with the kids.  I learned one thing though...I'm going to be a blubbering mess when my kid is a senior.  I teared up tonight during senior recognition, and I only know a few of them personally!  Sigh...

But, even better than the concert is----> I wore a pair of pants to work today that I'm going to have to put in the donation bag.  It was really awful.  They were literally falling off all day.  I can stand with both arms at my sides and fit them in the waste of my pants.  They're really baggy everywhere, and I hope I didnt look foolish, lol. 

Ok, off to work the arms.  (Didnt have time last night...only did abs then.)

Monday, May 7, 2012

Thinking...

I've been reading some blogs about people doing the No Weigh May thing.  I'm wondering if I could do it too.  Its not like I've been making changes if I dont see something I like...  I'll have to think about it for a day or two...

I have another thing I could use as an indication:  I was looking through my dresser over the weekend and found an outfit I bought at least 3 years ago.  It was still in the package (I ordered it online).  I didn't even take it out because I knew it wouldn't fit.  But I was curious now, so I took it out.  And put it on...cute blue and white plaid seersucker capri pants with a blue shirt.  And they fit.  Well enough that I could consider wearing them for a short amount of time to somewhere like church or something, but not for any length of time.  The pants were still just a little snug.  (Squatting could be an issue...and since I work with kids and am on their level often, that might be a problem.)  So, I'm hoping by the end of this challenge that I can wear them comfortably for as long as I want, wherever I want.  :)

Tonight I have a meeting at the middle school at 7.  I don't really want to exercise before that because I don't want to get all sweaty.  But once I get home I want to do the arm weight exercises and crunches.  I'd really like to start C25K too, but not sure I can pull that off as well.  We'll see how long the meeting is.  I slept terribly last night and am planning on going to bed early.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

End of Week 6

Ugh!  6 weeks in and I dont have much to show for it.  (Hoping you will have another challenge through the summer when I'm hoping to have more time and energy to put into it!)  :)

Weight:  Lose 2+ lbs (I think thats what it was)  No, but I'm ok with where I am for the week...I'm about the same as last week
NSV:
Nutrition: Count calories.  No.  How do you do this when you make up your own concoctions?  I can do the recipe calculator, but I dont know how many servings I get out of a lot of things.  I'd just like to know how many calories are in a cup of it or some such thing.  I did pretty well with portions though
Exercise: Do something.  Yes, I did... Not a lot, but a little.  Worked abs one night, then yesterday we went skating for a friend's daughter's birthday, then played laser tag.  So fun.  I even did better than I thought I would at skating.  (Got free passes to go another time, so hoping to do that in the next couple weeks)  Also worked arms and abs last night.
While it wasnt a great week, it wasnt as bad as some have been.

Week 7:

Weight:  lose something
NSV:  Keep my head above water
Nutrition:  Back to salads for lunch.  My aunt took my salad dressing home (she brought lunch last week) and I didnt have my favorite for the week.  I miss it!  Calories and/or portion control.
Exercise: Just do something

This week is going to be crazy.  First, my mom has been in the hospital in Columbus again since Tuesday.  She went for a check up and they kept her.  I thought I was going to go pick her up today, but she said they wouldnt release her and maybe tomorrow.  (Thats what we've heard all week)
Second, this coming week:  Monday thru Thursday is softball for someone.  Monday I have a meeting for the upcoming 8th grade trip to Washington DC (second daughter and I will be going next week).  Tuesday is the high school concert (band and choirs).  Wednesday I have a dinner for a teacher retiring from our school.  Thursday is actually open (besides softball).  Friday is another high school concert, this time the boys and girls elite choirs.  I'm already tired. 
The next week is the middle school concert on Monday, Tuesday I'll have to pack because we leave at 5:30 Wednesday morning for DC.  We'll get back early Saturday morning.

I'm SO ready for summer break!  Have a great week.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Quick Update

Thanks for all the kind and encouraging words.  I'm really sorry I havent had time to comment more to all of you.  I'm barely having time to read right now.
I did however take some advice and did crunches on the exercise ball last night.  At least it was something.  Tonight I'd like it to be something involving arms...pushups or resistance band at least.

Thanks for the nudge.  ;)

Sunday, April 29, 2012

End of Week 5

I am epically failing my first challenge.  I'm no farther along than I was when I started.  I like the quote from this week...on to plan B...or C, or ZZZZZZZZZZ

Last week:
Lose 2 lbs: no, although I didnt weigh this morning, so I'm not positive about that.
NSV:  Take pics and post meals: no.  Not even one
Nutrition: count calories...stay between 1200 and 1500.  Only tracked one day I think
Exercise: 3 days.  No.

See, epically failing.  I'll get there.

Week 6.

Lose something.  Anything. 
NSV: Going to try pics again.  Its harder than I thought it might be.
Nutrition: Healthy eating. Count calories.
Exercise:  Yes.  Something.  I'm feeling the need to do something strength wise to work on my arms.  We had sign ups for our church softball team today and I need to be ready.

Things are rough.  I'm not sure when I'm going to make it to the grocery store this week.  My mom is doing a bit better, so that helps.  But my bathroom is still torn completely apart.  I did finally get it primed today, so hoping to have some time to paint tomorrow.  Then maybe I can tile the floor...Wednesday (or Thursday if I'm not working).  (I have a meeting Tuesday evening, so it wont happen then.) 

And then there's the hubs.  We've been separated for 2 years.  We are amicable...he stops when he wants to see the girls, will help me with stuff that needs fixed here, etc.  We're better friends now than we were when we were living together.  We filled out dissolution papers awhile ago, but neither of us has the money to file them.  He stayed with the girls on Friday while I went out with some ladies from work.  When I got home, he wants to talk.  He said he's done a lot of growing up, and a lot of thinking, and he'd like to work on us and see if we can save our marriage.  I dont know what to think.  I certainly didnt go into my marriage intending to get divorced, but things happen.  But I did spend a lot of time getting myself to the place I am now after he moved out.  And I'm happy.   I'm probably willing to give it a try, but I'm so guarded...I dont want to get hurt again. 
Just add another chapter of stress to my life...  :)

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Like the pictures?

For those of you that post pics of your food, how do you remember to do it?  Or better yet, how did you start out?  I cant remember to even get the camera out!  (I carry it in my purse so I always have it with me)  So yeah, no pics so far this week. 

Its another one of those stressful weeks.  I feel like I'm getting nowhere on the bathroom remodel.  I mean, I am, but there are too many holes to patch (from when they blew insulation in the walls, so they're big) and its not working like I was hoping, so I'm still waiting on it to dry.

Then my mom is not good again.  She has the drain in and was doing pretty well the first couple days, but has taken a step backwards now.  So I've been spending time down there helping her.

Thankfully I'm not turning to food or anything, but I'm also not accomplishing my goals.  Ugh!  I. am. stressed.  I'm supposed to spend the day tomorrow with my friends but I feel like I should stay home with my mom.  I guess I'll see how she feels tomorrow.  I'd just like to get out for a bit.  Sigh...

Sunday, April 22, 2012

End of Week 4

This is SO not going as I had hoped.  I need to make permanent changes in my life so when life gets in the way, my eating and exercising and everything else dont get pushed to the back.  Sigh...  It was a super rough week, and super busy, but that is going to happen in life (probably more often than I'd like in mine), and I need to learn to deal with it!

So, last week:
Lose 2 lbs:  No.  I actually think I'm up about 3 maybe.  Yep, there it is.
NSV 
Nutrition:  Portion control:  sort of
Exercise: At least 3 days.  Geesh, I did this one week and lost 4.6lbs...and no real exercise since then.  Grrr.

Week 5...the half way week:
Weight loss:  AT LEAST 2 LBS!  No excuses not to hit this this week!
NSV:  Take pics of what I eat and post them to stay accountable!
Nutrition:  Count calories~~Stay between 1200 and 1500.  No sweets until Sunday.  (Lent was so good for me on this one!)
Exercise: DO SOMETHING.  I havent been to softball practice with the girls in a week and a half with all the appointments and such going on, so I havent been walking.  It makes me feel so good when I do.  I'd really really like to start the 30 day shred this week, but I'm not sure thats going to happen.  If not, then next week.

I need to make my health a priority.  (Its just so hard when my mom is in the hospital 2 hours away and my daughter has appointments in the opposite direction 1 1/2 hours away.  At least all that is over for now!)

(Oh, and I'll post bathroom remodel pics hopefully tomorrow.  Its just the beginning stages so far, but I hope it doesnt take longer than this week to get it done!)

Saturday, April 21, 2012

The good, the bad and the ugly

I think I need to make a change.  I'm thinking to be more accountable, I should start posting what I eat.  I see pics and lists of what some of you are eating, and being really honest, and maybe thats what I need to do.  I've been doing badly again this week.  Its not entirely my fault, but when eating out, I could make better decisions.  Its just been a long hard week.  I think one of my goals for next week will be to do pics (maybe) and post what I'm eating.  I think that will help me choose better.  :)

The good things from the week:
My oldest has a healthy heart!  The cardiologist thinks she is living in a state of dehydration, and needs extra water/fluids to increase her blood volume.  So we're trying to make sure she drinks plenty.  (Non caffeinated, which isn't really a problem at home since we rarely have soda.)  She stands the whole time she is in choir class, so the doc told her to shift her weight and flex her feet.  Keeping her muscles moving will help keep the blood circulating and stop it from pooling in her legs, which is probably causing the black outs.  So overall, good news.

I also brought my mom home from Columbus yesterday.  She has a drain in her liver right now, and will have it until May 1st when she has to go back and probably have a stent put in.  But her lovely yellow color is slowly returning to normal.  Thankfully no surgery at this point.

And then there's always the bad:
When I picked my oldest up from school, she ate lunch here before we left for her appointment.  She was in the basement and called me to come down right away.  There was water pouring out of the ceiling of the new bathroom down there.  AAAARRRRGGGGHHH!  At first it was thought to be the wax ring around the toilet in my bathroom, but it turns out to be more than that.  (Well, that might have been it, but the subfloor was all rotted in my bathroom.)  So the ex pulled up the sub floor for me and put  down a new one today.  I ran to Menards today and got a new sink (I've wanted to change out the vanity and sink to a pedestal one) and flooring and paint.  This bathroom needs redone something terribly (its really ugly, and the floor is awful), but I dont really have the money to do it now.  Unfortunately, I have to.  I will take off the wallpaper and paint it yet today (I hope), then put down the tile tomorrow and grout it Monday.  Then hopefully Tuesday the new sink can go in, and I'll have to make a decision about a new toilet or the old one.  I'm not replacing the medicine cabinet yet, and I need to figure out what to do with the shower.  But at least this will be a beginning and hopefully stop the leaking.

My legs will get a good workout tiling.  I did the main bathroom last summer, and was really sore by the time I was done.  At least something will get exercised!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Sigh...

So I ate badly yesterday. I only ate twice, both meals out, neither great. I felt downright awful last night when I got home. They could hear my stomach rumbling from across the room. (Ate at BK on the way home...I cant tell you the last time I ate something like that, even before I started "eating healthy".) It was not nice.
I was so happy to have my salad for lunch today. I think my body thanked me. :)

Tomorrow I'll eat dinner out. My oldest has her appointment with a cardiologist, and I can eat breakfast and lunch at home, but will take her out for dinner afterwards. (Its nice to be able to do that with just one sometimes.) I'm not sure where she's going to want to go, but I will definitely make a better choice than I did yesterday. I dont want to feel like that again.

There has been no exercise so far this week. I was taking care of my mom on Monday, didnt get home from the hospital until almost 9 last night (left at 8:30 am), and had a meeting tonight after work. Sigh... Maybe tomorrow morning since I'm not working. I need life to slow down just a bit.

And then there's stress. I've tried to call and text my mom today, but no answer or reply. My aunt has a call in to the nurse, but she hasn't heard back from them either. Ugh! If we dont hear from anyone tonight, my aunt is heading down at 8 tomorrow morning. I would think someone would have let me know if there were complications, but I think my mom would have called me if she was ok. So I dont know what to think. I hate that she's so far away for things like this. (2 hours, but it was just a "we do it every day" procedure!)

I'm really tired, so I'm heading to bed early. I'm just wearing out this week.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Stress

My nerves are getting the best of me today already, and its only 7am!

Thanks to all of you for the kind words. Its tough right now. We're heading out in about an hour to see the surgeon. My mom ended up coming home Sunday evening, and her appointment in Columbus is today. We dont know if its just a consultation, if they'll end up keeping her, or even if there is anything they can do. I think I'm more nervous about this visit than I have been the previous times we've gone. This surgeon is awesome, and he's done SO much for my mom, but I'm worried after what I heard the ER doc say Friday night. I know there's no used getting worked up right now, since I have no idea what he's going to say, but...

I took yesterday and today off work. Since my mom is living here now (she has her own apartment in the basement, but she's still "here"), I stayed home to "take care of her." I wouldnt have had to, and I know that, but I didnt need the added stress of everything going on at work. The downside... I do SO much better with my eating when I'm at work. I'm really going to have to step it up, pay attention, and not eat out of stress and comfort! I'll be gone all day today, who knows about tomorrow, then Thursday with my daughter. We're leaving a little early this morning because my mom wants to go out for breakfast. I'll try to make good choices and drink lots of water!

Wish me luck this week... Sigh....

Saturday, April 14, 2012

End of Week 3?

I'm not sure how much I'll be around in the next couple days, so I'll post today.

As of right now, I stayed the same. I also only "officially" exercised 2 days, but spent today and yesterday moving my mom. We remodeled the basement, and we moved her in. Unfortunately, there's more to the story (later).
I did ok with eating too, but didnt count calories...just tried to watch portions and such.

Next week I hope to lose 2+ pounds.
I need to exercise at least 3 days (this is going to be iffy)
Count calories (again, iffy for this week)

And here is why things will be a bit iffy. As if things weren't already stressful enough... we took my mom to the ER last night around 8. She came to my house yesterday and was really really jaundiced. (For those of you new to my blog, my mom was diagnosed with colon cancer 5 years ago. She's had 4 surgeries, chemo, etc. The last surgery (last year in Feb) was really hard on her, and its been a rough year. We know she still has some spots on her liver.) So I was getting worried. She slept all day, barely woke up to eat or talk...so after much begging, b!tch!in, pleading and crying (me), she finally went. Her bloodwork came back great, except her potassium...it was critically low. So they started her on IV potassium. She also had a CAT scan and x-ray. The scan showed a big change since the last one, and the ER doc told us it's usually pretty bad at this point. He didn't want to tell my mom that yet, he wanted her to talk to her oncologist and a surgeon to see what they had to say. She called today to say they're sending her to Columbus (that is about 2 hours away). She's had all her surgeries there, so they want her to go back there for the consultation. I'm waiting to hear from here to see when she's being transferred, and when I should head down. So I dont know when I'll be eating, what I'll be eating, where I'll be eating/staying if necessary. Everything is a little up in the air.

Oh, and my daughter has her appointment with a pediatric cardiologist on Thursday afternoon (about 1 1/2 hours away near Cleveland). Yes, I live in the middle of nowhere.

But to end on a bright note... We put out an email to our church family on Wednesday saying we were moving Mom today. We had about 35 friends and family show up to help, with about 8 trucks. The first truck pulled in at 8:10 am (she's only moving a mile up the road), and the last truck was done at 10:15 am. I scrambled to finish an early lunch so everyone could eat, and then many stayed to start unpacking boxes and putting things away. They washed and scrubbed and put away until about 4:30pm. There are only a few boxes left my mom will have to sort through. It will be so wonderful for her to come home to a house all put together. I am so blessed. Its been a bit of a rough ride lately, but knowing there are so many people out there that love us and pray for us and are there for us makes it a little easier.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Week 3 Day 1

Today was decent. I ate ok, didnt think I'd get any exercise in, but really felt the need. (Really? Is this really my way of thinking now???) So I did 40 minutes of Just Dance 2 with my girls. So fun, and I was sweating and my arms and legs were getting a workout. The girls laugh at me, but I told them I didnt care, I just wanted to burn calories. If I remember, I'm still going to do some crunches on the ball before bed.

In other news, I left work an hour early today to take my daughter back to the dr. She had another episode yesterday at sunrise service. But this time she got an awful headache afterwards (like right after), and that hasn't happened before. I didnt feel like I should wait until Friday to take her back. So we went this afternoon. She noted her BP to be a little low, but after the tests the other doc did last week, she said she didnt really have anything left to do in the office, so she wants her to see a cardiologist to have an echocardiogram. My daughter just turned 15. How can she need this???! The doc is thinking her heart is healthy, but they just want to be sure its pumping correctly. They're not sure why her bp is dropping so much, but its not as concerning since its not happening during activity. They'll call me tomorrow with the appointment time. I'm not overly worried yet... I'll wait to see what we find out there first. I just want to know how we can keep the episodes from happening.

It feels like today has been such a long day!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

End of Week 2

Well, lets just say week 2 was WAY better than week 1. There's a lot to be said about people stopping by to see how you're doing, lol.

WL: At least 2 lbs Yes! Actually, I lost 4.6 lbs this week. Woohoo!

NSV: Get some things done around here. We're on spring break, so I should have time Hmmm, I suppose I did get some things done, but it was really busy for being on break!

Nutrition: Count calories 6/7 days (I dont count on Sundays) Yes. There were some things I couldnt count, but I took a decent guess. Paid off anyway. :)

Exercise: Yes. At minimum 3 times! Again, being on spring break should leave no excuses! Yes! 4 days actually.

So, for next week:

WL: I'd like to keep it at 2 weeks, but I know after a really good week like this past one, its usually a disappointment.

NSV:

Nutrition: My body really doesn't like me to count calories two weeks in a row. I know this is going to sound really dumb, but I can expect to lose 0 if I do exactly the same thing as last week. So for this week I'm going to watch portions, but not be as tight on calorie counting...or watching wheat/carbs.

Exercise: I'm leaving this at 3 days minimum again. Would like to find other things to do when I cant get outside (and just to change things up). Any suggestions for a good (but cheap) yoga video? Or some other fun dance/aerobic video? Hmmm, we have 3 dance games for the Wii that I need to remember too. Love those (even though the girls make fun of me...yet I still beat them!).

Have a great week 3!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Day 5 Week 2

What has happened to me?

Its a lazy Friday today...I took my daughter (the same one from the dr incident) and 3 of her friends bowling today. Got them pizza, and now they're just hanging out here playing the Wii. I messed around here for awhile, doing a little of this, a little of that (because I cleaned this morning). I ate some bad stuff... like 3 small pieces of pizza and a couple cookies. (I'm thankful we got medium pizzas and they're cut into 10 pieces!) I sit down to relax and just have this nagging feeling...get up, get up. I don't want to. I got in my 3 days of exercise this week, so I've met that goal.

Get up! You ate badly today...too many carbs...you are .4lbs from hitting 20 lbs lost and you would love to see that number tomorrow...GET UP!

So I did. And I walked 2 miles. Can I just say it sucks living at the top of a hill???!!! Which ever route I choose to walk, I start out downhill and then have to come back uphill. Ugh! But I did. And I feel good. And my shins hurt now, because we walked hills last night too. But I feel good. And thats all that really matters in the end.

But that wasn't quite enough to silence the voice. So I also did crunches on the exercise ball and resistance bands on my arms.

Now there's no more guilt for sitting here the rest of the evening. I think my friend is coming over for a bit, so I have no reason not to just sit here and enjoy the company. And I feel good! :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Day 3 Week 2

So tired.

I didnt sleep well at all last night, then had to get up at 6:30 to take my daughter to babysit. Came home and did a few things around the house.

I had to take my oldest daughter to the doc at 1:20. She's been having spells where she gets light headed and her vision goes black and she said everything sounds like she's underwater. So we went to have her checked out. She had 2 spells while we were there. They did an EKG, sugar test, blood work, etc. Thankfully (I think) they didnt find anything, but he couldnt tell us why it was happening. Our doc was on vacation this week, so he wants us to go back and see her next week to follow up, and see if she wants to do any further testing. So for now we just watch her. (Her BP was low...they took it many times today, and one time it was 96/40!)
But we were at the doc's for THREE HOURS! He wouldnt let us leave until he got her blood work back.

Anyway, the rest of the evening was just as crazy. Ran to Walmart after the docs, then took her to grab something at Taco Bell, then home to grab another daughter for ball practice. I did get in another walk tonight...farther this time. I didnt measure, but it was probably 1 1/2 miles.

Still within calories today too.

Hoping for some good sleep tonight too!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Day 2 Week 2

Another good day!

While I didnt get any exercise in at the park, I did play ball with my daughter tonight while another one practiced. (No walk, just played ball) It was fun! I love softball.

Also had a decent day eating. We took lunch, but did end up grabbing something on the way home later since I wouldn't have time to cook before practice. I logged it all, and all is well calorie wise today.

Feels so much better to be on track!

PS. One more thing...for those of you that track calories online, when do you do it? Throughout the day? All at the end of the day? I've wanted to do it, but I'd need to do it throughout the day so I know where I stand by dinner time. I dont have a smartphone, so no apps for me, and I rarely have time to log things in during the day, or even at night. Any suggestions? Right now I do it all in a notebook, but I love some of the programs you all are using.

Monday, April 2, 2012

First Day Week 2

Today has been SO much better!

I'm at around 1200 calories for the day. I like to keep it a little above that, but that's where I came in tonight, and that's where its staying for today.
Drank plenty of water. Really feel like I could have a bit more, but its too close to bedtime to drink anything else, lol.
Exercised! Yes, you read that right...I got in some exercise. I took my daughter to softball practice, watched a bit, then 2 of my other daughters and I went for a walk. It was only a mile tonight, but it was up and down some hills. (I drove the same route when we left, and it was just about exactly a mile. Good to know for future walks) I could have gone farther easily, but my 7 year old was complaining then whole time, so that was it for today. Next time I'll leave her at home, lol. But hey, its something!

Tomorrow I'm meeting 3 of my friends and their kids at the park. (We have 14 kids among us!) I'm hoping to do a bit of playing (unorganized exercise), even though I'm sure my friends are just planning on chatting. Its so fun when we all get together, which isnt often enough. We've been friends since elementary school! We are each bringing our own picnic lunches, so I'll have total control of what I eat. I'm planning on taking my usual salad, and some kind of fruit. I'm looking forward to it. (Another daughter has practice tomorrow evening, so I may get in another walk too!)

Sunday, April 1, 2012

End of Week One

Sigh...

Week one was definitely not what I had planned, nor was it a success. I'm really going to have to do better.

Weight Loss: Lose 2 lbs (Um, no)
NSV: I didnt really have one (No wonder I couldnt remember and had to go back to look, lol)
Nutrition: I did ok here. I didnt track a couple days due to having things that I had no idea what the calorie count was (such as a carry in lunch at work). So I just watched portions on those days.
Exercise: Still a big fat 0

Man, it hurts to put all that out here for all to see. I dont want to do that again. So for week 2:

WL: At least 2 lbs
NSV: Get some things done around here. We're on spring break, so I should have time
Nutrition: Count calories 6/7 days (I dont count on Sundays)
Exercise: Yes. At minimum 3 times! Again, being on spring break should leave no excuses!

Mini goal: Try an exercise I dont normally do---> Should be pretty easy since I dont normally do any!

So, there it is...in black and white. I will do better this week so I dont have another depressing post like this next Sunday!

Friday, March 30, 2012

Need a Break

It has been a crazy busy week. I'm so ready for spring break! I'm behind on reading, slacking on goals....ugh!

Last night I had to pick up my oldest from school at 4. (She's switching from trumpet to tuba and started lessons last night) We had to run to town to the Verizon store. Waste. of. time. How can they not offer the same things in the store that they do online??? So we left there and went to Walmart. I got a few things and was sitting on a bench waiting for my mom. I honestly dont judge people, because I'm sure there are those around judging me. But I was just curious as to what people were buying. So I started watching carts.
Now I wasn't there to buy "groceries". I'm taking my oldest 2 and a friend to the movie tonight (Hunger Games, yay!), and we stopped to get candy and soda. (Shhhh, we're taking our own. I cant afford to buy it there!) I also had a bag of chips, because we'll stop to get pizza on the way home for dinner. We usually have soda if we get pizza (which isn't often), plus one of the girls will have a friend here ("special occasion"), so I had 2 bottles of soda. All that made my cart look bad. But I also had 2 things of strawberries, mixed greens for salad, protein bars and some juice.
I usually dont pay attention to what other people are buying. But I've read about others thinking about what they see in people's carts. Since I was sitting by the check outs, and had to wait for my mom, I decided to pay attention.
First couple: 2 overweight parents with a little boy (maybe 1 1/2). They have regular milk and chocolate milk, 4 2-liters of soda, poptarts, fruity pebbles, 2 bags of chips plus some other stuff. I saw no fruits or veggies. Now, maybe they're like me and were not there for "real" groceries...
But this seemed to be the norm...the heavy people were the ones buying junk. Do people think that about me when I have a shopping trip like last night? Do they think I shop like that all the time? I dont buy chips unless the girls have friends over and we're having pizza, or we're having a b-day party or something. We never "just have them in the house". And I really mean never. I dont buy cookies or other junk. I used to, but I'm really trying to change all of our eating habits. We dont have soda in the house (and I hear complaints about it from the girls)...I dont care if they have it on occasion, but I'm not going to have it here for them on a regular basis. And my grocery bill has gone way up. Eating healthy with lots of fruit and veggies is not cheap. At all. So maybe thats why so many people are heavy, and have the junk in the cart. I saw something on FB the other day that said, "No wonder we have an epidemic of obesity in the US when you can go to McDs and get a hamburger for 99 cents but a salad is $4.99". Yeah, no joke. Eating healthy is expensive.

But on to other things...
I have not exercised yet this week. Ugh! We had 2 concerts this week, I was cooking for a carry in at work one night, and had all the running around to do last night. I know they're excuses, but I have been utterly exhausted lately. I'm going to be lucky to get 2 days of exercise in this week. Sigh... Eating has been ok though.
I have to teach this afternoon. Kindergarten. Double ugh! I did it yesterday all day. Our kindy class is a handful to put it mildly. There are 26 of them in there, and she's documenting 7 of them for behavior. But---if I make it through this afternoon, spring break starts! An entire week off work. I'm so excited. We havent had a full week off since I cant remember when. We only used 1 snow day this year, so no days to make up. (Crazy!) I usually want to work a couple days over break, since I wont get paid being off, but since I taught yesterday and today, and have some extra hours from conference time to use next week, I should be ok. I'm just going to sit back and relax!

Hope you all are having a good week!

Monday, March 26, 2012

First Day

Tonight was my youngest daughter's spring musical. It was grades K-3. They really did a great job with it.

I think today was a pretty good first day. I had a couple changes happen during the day, so that threw off my eating plan, but not too terribly. I've really been trying to eat every 2-3 hours... I had breakfast, then took a snack for mid morning. I got a text that softball practice for my 10 year old was cancelled for tonight. That meant I could push dinner back to regular time instead of really early. But--I didnt bring a second snack so I could have something before tutoring. I had a protein bar in my purse, but thats what I had for my mid-morning snack, and I usually dont like to do that twice in a day. But it worked, and was better than other things I could have had. But I did have 2 pepperoni breadsticks from the cafeteria today with my salad (from home). Not all bad, but not in my original plan. Even with those, I'm still well within my calorie range.

Hoping for a good night sleep tonight and lots of energy tomorrow! Another long day ahead.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Its a start...

Thanks for the comments yesterday. I need to go follow everyone else's blogs! I've just been so limited in time that I have on here last week. I hope to do better soon. (Although, softball starts tomorrow, and that is 4 nights a week, so I dont know if I'll even have time to post. At least the week after is spring break! I need it terribly!)

I do pretty well on water. The quality sleep though...its severely lacking. I'm pretty sure my sleep (in time and quality) is being affected terribly by stress from work. Things are just bad there. (I work at an elementary school.) I'm hoping spring break gives everyone the chance to rest and regroup, and come back ready for the last 2 months. I'm hoping the break will get my sleep back on track. (I've even started taking melatonin, and while it does help me get to sleep on time, it doesnt keep me asleep all night, so I wake up a lot during the night.)

I have my menu ready for the week, and groceries have been gotten. (Now if this stupid migraine would just go away!)

So, tomorrow starts the challenge. I've been thinking of my goals for week 1:

Weight Loss: Since I want to lose 20 lbs, I suppose it should be 2lbs for the week. I'm not going to stress about a weekly weight loss goal though. Its the overall one that really counts. :)

NSV: ?

Nutrition: Count calories this week. Limit wheat. (Still no sweets since I gave them up for lent)

Exercise: 3 days. Since I've been doing 0, I should be able to do something 3 days (even with school concerts 2 of the nights)

Hope everyone has a great week!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Ugh!

I think I've had too much time to think about it. Ready for summer challenge starts Monday, and I'm soooo not ready now. :( I'm discouraged about the lack of movement on the scale. I know there are other things that matter as well, but this needs to happen for me. It seems I faithfully count calories, lose 5 or more pounds in a week, then none. And none the next week. And none the week after. Like seriously---none. So I haven't counted calories for the last few days. I haven't over eaten, even being at a retreat yesterday and today (with TONS of sweets that I couldn't eat ;) ). I've eaten things I'm trying to stay away from...carbs---in the form of wheat. But not an over abundance.
So Monday I will start again. Counting calories faithfully. I'm going to set weekly goals (I hope). Exercise wont start Monday, or even Tuesday (elementary program Monday, district band concert Tuesday), but my goal will be 3 days. I'm going to think about it more and post my weekly goals tomorrow. I also need to get groceries tomorrow so I'm ready with no excuses for the week!

I'm just not feeling so positive at the moment. :(

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Goals

So its time to think about what goals I want to accomplish during the Ready for Summer Challenge. This will be my first challenge, so I want to make sure I'm realistic about this. :)

***All goals are subject to change***

1. Weight
In 10 weeks I'd like to lose at least 20 lbs. I dont think that is unreasonable during this journey.

2. NSV
Be down at least 1 clothing size. I also need a new bathing suit, and I'd like to get one 1-2 sizes smaller.

3. Exercise
This will be my biggest problem area. Although I might have found a motivator... My first thought was to say I'll do some sort of exercise 3X/week. I figured I'd start walking next week when my girls start softball. Since its in the next town over, I just stay for practice anyway, so instead of sitting on the bench, I'm going to go for a walk (at least during the older dd's... might wait a few times until my youngest gets comfortable...this is her first year of softball). But in addition to that, I'm thinking about doing the C25K program again. I saw on Kristy's blog about the Color Run. That looks like a ton of fun, and there's one semi-near me in mid June... so I'd have just enough time to prepare. I have a couple weeks to think about it before registration opens. The one down side is the cost to enter. Its not really all that much, but for me its a pinch, especially at the beginning of April when I have other bills due and my quarterly ones due too. :( So we'll see. Might still do the C25K and do the Race for the Cure in September.
I'd also like to do the 30 Day Shred in there too!

4. Nutrition
This is one area I finally have under control. I've been trying to stay between 1200 and 1500 calories (counting faithfully every day but Sundays), and its been working. I'm really happy where I am with this right now. I also gave up sweets for Lent, and its probably the best decision I've made. Not sure I want to say I'll give them up for the whole challenge, but I might really consider that. When I have to be accountable to someone, its easier to stick with it.

Now that I have some of these things in place, I really need to find a new pair of tennis shoes really soon. That has to be a top priority if I'm going to start walking/running.

Looking forward to getting to know more of you, and seeing some great results.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Lots of Stuff on the Mind...

Maybe thats the reason I'm not sleeping well??? I'm guessing I will sleep better tonight because I dont have to work tomorrow. We'll see...

There's been so much going on at school. I dont think I ever remember so many elementary kids being suspended in a year. It seems every week or so another kids is out for one thing or another. Add 3 more to the list today. Sixth graders this time saying and doing really awful things to their female classmates. Hopefully they'll learn something from all this, because one of the ones suspended has been giving me much grief in the last 2 weeks. Sigh...

When I have cafeteria duty, I walk around and chat with the kids. One day we got on the subject of eating fruits and vegetables. I told them I think its important, and I make my kids eat 3 spoonfuls of whatever vegetable we have for dinner, whether they like it or not. It doesn't kill them, and hopefully will make them understand the importance of a varied diet.
Anyway, this conversation was with my daughter's class (4th grade). There is a girl in her class that must weigh between 150 and 175 lbs. She said her mom never makes her eat veggies, and only fruit if she wants to. Um, yeah, I would have guessed. But I dont feel like its my place to say anything to her. I can just talk about a balanced diet and being healthy. I do it to hopefully keep my kids from having to struggle with their weight the way I have my whole life. And so far it seems to be working. Dont you think every parent would want that for their child? The mom of this girl is terribly overweight as well. So of course that would lead us to believe its their lifestyle. And she's passing that lifestyle on to her kid...who will probably pass it on to her kids someday because thats all she knows. Its sad. I know what its like to grow up fat. She's going to be ridiculed. She's not going to fit in. She's going to suffer with self esteem issues. It breaks my heart.

I know I cant save the world. (But thats my personality type) So I'm just trying to make a difference.

Tonight it was my youngest (7) who didnt want to eat her cauliflower. Sigh... She knows the consequences...no veggies, no snack. So before bed she's telling me she's SO hungry. She really wants something to eat. But she made the choice not to eat her veggies, so she chose not to get a snack. I told her to have a glass of milk, but thats all she was getting. I want her to learn to make the right choices.

Its hard. Its hard for me to lose the weight. Its hard to teach my kids to make good choices. I have to remind my oldest more than the others about choosing what, when, and how much to eat. She could end up like me faster than the others, and I just dont want that to happen.

I'm trying. I hope its enough.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Mmmmm

I try to always ask the girls what they'd like for dinner during the week when I'm planning the menu. It usually helps with the griping when they have a say in what we're eating. Well, this week B decided she wanted chicken fajitas. Doesn't seem too hard, but when you've never made them before, its hard to know what to do. I'm not all that creative in the kitchen...I'm afraid I'll ruin stuff, and thats just money down the drain. But, it couldn't be that hard, right?
I cut up the peppers and onion to saute in just a bit of oil, and told B to look up what seasonings to use. She said garlic, chili pepper and oregano. So a few shakes here and there, add the chicken (already cooked and cut into strips---bought it that way), and dinner was done. I ate mine on a low carb wrap with a Tbsp of sour cream. The girls also had shredded cheese with theirs. Oh my... what a great low cal dinner for sure! I'll be making those again and again...I hope they dont get tired of them! ;)

In other news...still plugging away. Every bit I lose now is a new low I havent seen in I dont know how long. It feels good. And so do I with the healthy foods I've been eating. (Like blueberries---they're not my favorite on their own, but I had them with strawberries for lunch today and that was a great combination.)

But, daylight savings time is kicking my butt. I haven't felt as tired as I did this morning in quite some time. I usually get up and get in the shower (never hit snooze---really!). This morning I had to almost literally drag myself to the shower. Its been really rough.

So I am heading to bed now. A little before 9pm. Sigh...

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Good Week

This was a good first week back on plan. I lost 5.8 lbs overall! I know that wont last, but it was a good start.
Sundays are hard for me. We have dinner with extended family after church. When I have it here, I can control what we have and keep track of things a little better. But when its somewhere else, its so hard to know how many calories are in things. So I just try to make good (decent) choices. I know I ate too much for one meal today, but thats the main meal I had, and I probably wont eat again. (I had a good healthy breakfast this morning.) So I'm pretty sure I'm still under calories, but there's just no way to tell.

I joined a challenge. (See icon on side) I'm a little nervous about this. Its the first one I've found before it actually starts, so its my first attempt at checking in each week with others. Yikes. ;) But it lasts for 10 weeks, and I think it will be good for me to stay accountable to get ready for summer!

I hate daylight savings time. I hate that when I get up, its dark (or still dark for a longer time). I hate that I'm putting my kids to bed when its light outside. I hate that it messes with my sleep and I have such a hard time getting back on track. (I dont have as much trouble getting back on track in the fall...that is more my natural sleep cycle) So I'm tired. I have a headache. And its going to be a long week starting out like this.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Friday Five

My weekly reflections...

1. I'm back on track. After faithfully counting calories this week, I've lost 4.6 lbs.

2. When I plan ahead, I can make good choices when eating out and stay within my calorie budget. After looking at some nutritional values from different restaurants, I decided there are some I just need to stay away from, or I'll use my entire day's worth of calories on one meal.

3. I still need to add some exercise into my days. It was really nice on Weds (70), but I had to work, then had errands after school. Of course, on Thursday when I was off, it was near 60 but pouring down rain. Sigh... I want to start the 30 day shred soon.

4. I need to figure out how to get a good night's sleep every night. Or at least more than 1 night a week. This is getting out of hand.

5. But, I'm finding even when I'm not sleeping well, eating healthy makes me feel good. I'm not dragging around, I'm clear headed, less headaches, more alert. And it feels good. So why do I have such a hard time keeping it up??? (I think its definitely helping that I've given up sweets for lent.)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Positives

Finally a post where I can say things are back on track and going well. Started faithfully counting calories again on Monday, and so far this week I'm down 4.2 lbs. I had to run to the store last night, so we grabbed Wendys for the girls. I passed, and instead got a Lean Cousine pizza to bring home to make. A much better choice.
It doesn't hurt that I've given up sweets for lent either. Our janitor brought cupcakes to school yesterday for everyone. She told me she brought them yesterday because the PE teacher and I would both be there. Then I felt bad for telling her I couldn't have one, but thanked her for the thought. They looked good, but weren't really that hard to resist. I'm amazed at how easy its been to pass on the sweets.
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Just got back from lunch out with a friend. I'm so very proud of how I handled this today. I picked the restaurant, looked over the nutritional information before I left to choose something that will fit into my calorie allotment, and then stuck with my decision once I got there. So lunch out was 380 calories. (For the record, I looked at Applebees first and found nothing that would work there. Nothing. Can that really be?) Great step in the right direction for me!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Time to get serious

My dad came to visit over the weekend. We picked a time in May to head to Cedar Point. Its been several years since I've been there, so I cant wait. But---I have to have more weight off by then. Its a little over 3 months away, so I'm pushing for 30 pounds. It really has to be at least that by then. This will get me just about to my second goal for the year (50 lbs by my b-day, which is the end of May). I missed the first goal (20 lbs by Feb 16th) by about 6 lbs. So I must work harder.

Its supposed to get nice again by the end of this week (so I think I've heard). I'm really thinking about having the girls meet me at the school on days I work so we can walk on the trail for a bit after school. On days I'm off, I can do it myself during the day, or just pick them up at the school and go after. I know it wont happen every day, especially with softball starting soon, but I'm hoping our home field is somewhere I can walk during practices. I just need to add this piece in.

Since I had company over the weekend, the house is in pretty good shape. I'd really like to start back on the 30 day shred. Only I think I'm going to approach it differently this time... Last time I couldnt walk after just a few days. I was hobbling, I hurt everywhere, which I know is the point. But then I couldn't give it 100% because I just hurt too bad. So I think I will actually do the 30 day shred in 60 days, and do it every other day instead of every day. Might take a little longer to get the results, but I'm hoping then I can give it 100% every time.

And I'm back to measuring and counting calories. I'm going to try my plate at Livestrong to help me keep track. They tell me around 1500 calories will let me lose about 2 lbs per week. I'm hoping adding exercise will up that just a bit, so I can hit my 30 pound goal.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Motivation

I'm still sitting here at about the same place I've been for a couple weeks (again). But...I got a compliment at church today that made me feel good. Someone told me they could tell I'm losing weight. Honestly, I'm pretty sure it was just because of the shirt I was wearing, but it did give me the motivation to keep working. Sometimes I guess thats all we really need...

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Still plugging along

I just dont feel like I have anything to say.

We went to Kalahari last Thursday and Friday with a friend and her 2 daughters. It was the first time there for me and 3 of my kids. We had a blast! It was so so so very fun.

Spent Saturday cooking and baking for the b-day party on Sunday. I did cupcakes this time... cookie dough cupcakes and brownie bite cupcakes, both of which I found on another blog. Gave me ideas to try my own concoctions though. :) I'd love to be more adventurous with cooking and baking.

But, it wont be for awhile. I gave up sweets for lent. I'm not catholic, but I find I stick to things like this better when I do it for lent. I guess I feel I'll be breaking a promise to God if I cheat. Thats bigger than breaking a promise to me or something like that. So, day one has been fine so far.

And that could be because I had a growth taken off my chin today. It was ugly. He asked me if I'd had any trauma to my chin, because it was a group of veins that had gone haywire, and they usually see that on hands after some kind of trauma. I cant think of anything that would have happened, but who really knows. At any rate, its gone now, and I'm left with a bunch of little stitches. Thankfully I'm not scheduled to teach the next 2 days. :)

We got all of Mom's apartment painted on Sunday and Monday. I think she and Ali are getting excited. Its really coming together.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Back At It

and doing better again. Yesterday being my weigh in day (and not really knowing what I was at last Thursday), I can finally post that I'm back on the losing train. I'm down 14.2 pounds! Thats probably around a 4 pound loss this week. I've been working hard again.

But---yesterday was also my oldest daughter's 15th birthday, so I took her out for dinner. And where did she pick??? A buffet! Ugh! I did really well though, and am happy with my choices.

I have 6 pounds to lose by next Thursday to make my first mini goal of the year. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do that, but at least I'll be close, and I can be happy with that.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Something New

First of all, I'm still here. I just really dont have much to say. Still hanging around the same place I've been for awhile. Sigh...

But, I have a friend who sent me a whole box of nutri-system food....a month's worth. While I would never spend the money to do it myself (who am I kidding---I dont have the money even if I'd want to), I'm thankful to have the opportunity to try it. I'm going to start Monday and try really hard to stick to it 100% at least 5-6 days per week. Thursday I'm taking my oldest daughter out for dinner for her b-day (she's turning 15---fifteen!), so I'll just make good choices then, but otherwise, I really want to put the effort into this. If it works for me, I can have one more box (month) for free. Then its all up to me again. If anyone has any helpful hints or experience with this program, I'd love to hear about it. I'm going in a bit blind.

In other news, they should start drywalling the basement on Monday, and he said we should be able to paint down there next weekend! Its really moving along. And I'm LOVING my new washer and dryer. I just cant believe how much they hold.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Sigh...

Sigh. I do that a lot. Still hanging at a 10 lb loss so far this month. While that may sound good, its not all that great when I lost almost 9 of that the first week. I get to this point every time and just sit. And sit. And sit. Nice to know I can maintain, but I'm not ready to do that at this point! Grrrrrr.

On a happy note, the new washer and dryer are coming tomorrow! I had to make some calls this evening, as no workers showed up today and I have no outlet in the bathroom for the dryer yet. So I should have everyone here tomorrow that I need before they bring the dryer. I cant wait to use it. Since the old stuff has been unhooked since Monday, I'm in need of a laundry day for sure!