Thursday, January 26, 2012

Sigh...

Sigh. I do that a lot. Still hanging at a 10 lb loss so far this month. While that may sound good, its not all that great when I lost almost 9 of that the first week. I get to this point every time and just sit. And sit. And sit. Nice to know I can maintain, but I'm not ready to do that at this point! Grrrrrr.

On a happy note, the new washer and dryer are coming tomorrow! I had to make some calls this evening, as no workers showed up today and I have no outlet in the bathroom for the dryer yet. So I should have everyone here tomorrow that I need before they bring the dryer. I cant wait to use it. Since the old stuff has been unhooked since Monday, I'm in need of a laundry day for sure!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Plugging along

I stopped counting calories this week and have tried relying on portion sizes and healthy choices. So far so good. We'll make sure of that tomorrow when I weigh in. If it continues to go well, I'll keep it up. I still measure some things, and will take a suggestion I read somewhere to measure everything the first 3 days of every month to make sure portions stay the right size. Portion control is my biggest issue for sure (followed closely by my sweet tooth).

Feeling a little off today...I have just a bit of a headache, and just a bit nauseous. Not sure what thats all about, but I sure hope I'm not getting sick!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Bad weekend

I'm not beating myself up over this weekend. Some choices weren't mine, and some were bad choices I chose to make.
Saturday we had a going away party for my cousin's daughter who is leaving for the navy tomorrow. The food was good. I dont particularly like potato chips, but we have a local company that makes the best french onion chip dip ever. So I had some with chips. And a little hot chicken dip with tortilla chips. And some creamed chicken with no bun. I also had a piece of cake. And full sugar soda. There was deli turkey, that I passed on. There were no veggies. Oh, I did have some water. So while I didnt eat healthy, I also didn't stuff myself silly with bad foods.
Today we had a birthday party. Ugh. I had a donut at church before the party. Then I had a coney at the party, a few baked beans, and some apple sauce. And a piece of cake with a scoop of icecream. Again, not healthy choices (but thats all that was there), but I also didn't stuff myself. Now today is over and I'll start fresh tomorrow.

I'm tired of counting calories. I don't think this is something I can keep up with forever. Tomorrow I'm going to start an almost-phase-1 SBD week. I dont know that I'm going to weigh and measure everything, but I'm going to try to follow what I've been doing and see what happens.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A Good Day

I feel good about today. I didnt get any exercise in so to speak, but overall today feels good. I think part of the reason is I ate well. The kids were good at school. I have my lunch packed for tomorrow. The dishes are done. Homework is done (the kids, not mine). :) Meat is browned for tomorrow's dinner.

Feels good!

Today:
B: english muffin, egg, RF cheese
Sn: yogurt
L: mixed greens, turkey, RF cheese, LC dressing and a brownie (small)
Sn: RF cheese stick, clementine
D: chili, light sour cream, RF cheese
Sn: mixed berry crisp, 1/2 c vanilla ice cream

Total: 1400 AND (drumroll please) 80 oz of water! I haven't done that in awhile!

The basement is still coming along. We had an interesting day yesterday. They were using a gas powered concrete saw and the house filled with exhaust. The carbon monoxide detector was going off in the basement, so we decided to leave early (we were going shopping). I left the back door and kitchen window open, even though it was cold. When we came home, they came up right away to tell us not to use any water. They had hit the sewer pipe. Ew! So we decided to go see a movie. (Beauty and the Beast in 3D) By the time we got home from that they had fixed everything. It was a fun day out anyway.

There is some sad news though. A lady I've known for a long time (she went to college with my mom and I went to school with her son) died unexpectedly on Sunday. They think it was either a massive stroke or a heart attack. Three of her family members work in the district I do, and her DIL worked at my school last year.
And a member of our church died today. He was older (80s probably) and had cheated death before. This one was expected, as he's been going downhill rather quickly lately.
They will both be missed.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Day 2

I dont think the shred can be getting easier by day 2, but I dont feel like dying tonight like I did last night. I'm still doing a couple things modified---like push ups. I hate those. Hate. But I'll get there...

I went appliance shopping with my mom again today. I ended up with a new washer and dryer. This was so not the plan when we started this whole process, but mine will not fit anywhere on the main floor of my house. And we've measured everywhere. So, I will sell mine and will be the proud new owner of stackable front loaders in about a week or so. My mom got her stove, microwave and dishwasher. We weren't so lucky on the shower and sink, and the shower is probably at the top of the list of things we need (or at least have measurements for) by Monday. So we'll probably be heading out again tomorrow after church and lunch.

As for today, we went out for lunch for Mexican. It was soooo good. I love mexican food. Love it. I'm sure I ate too much, but I havent been hungry since. I did eat a greek yogurt after working out, and that will be the end of my food for today.

Sarah's Giveaway

I just found her blog today and am enjoying it. Go check it out and see what she's giving away...

http://fatsosarah.blogspot.com/2012/01/fat-so-sarah-giveaway.html?showComment=1326581727654#c4552231723836132436

Friday, January 13, 2012

Tired

We got snow. Lots of snow. And lots of wind. So now there are lots of drifts. If today hadn't been a waiver day, there would have been no school. But since it was a waiver day, I still had to go out and to the meeting. Fun times. Oh well, I got paid for it and got to sit and chat with the other librarians.

Once I got home I was (hoping to be) in for the weekend. But no such luck. The contractor and plumber came back this afternoon. That led to discussions for my mom's bathroom, but also for what to do with my washer and dryer. They cant stay in the basement, but they won't fit in my bathroom. So my mom and I are going shopping tomorrow. I think I'm going to have to get a stackable. That means a reconfiguration of my bathroom...moving the toilet and putting the stackable in the alcove. He said it really wouldnt be much trouble.

I did get to spend the afternoon in the family room with the girls in front of a fire. Maybe tomorrow night as well (without my girls :( ). But then I decided I'd waited long enough, and really needed to start the 30 day shred. So I spent 22 minutes of pure Jillian hell, and when I was done I was really hoping I can force myself to do that again 29 more times. Its gonna be rough.

Today:
B: english muffin with egg and cheddar cheese
L: (at my meeting) pizza, chips and salsa, cucumbers, chocolate chip bar (I feel I did really well here today)
D: english muffin, grilled chicken breast w/chipotle sauce, spinach and tomato, carrots and broccoli
Sn: yogurt

Not sure on total calories today since lunch was a little out of my control. But I think I did ok. And my other comment on food today would be Chobani pineapple yogurt is the best stuff ever. I think I could give up all other yogurt for that (after I wasn't sure I would even like it)! (And no, its not a review, I didnt get paid or compensated to say that, or anything else, lol. I actually prefer Oikos most of the time, but Chobani has some different flavors I've been trying. Pineapple is my favorite of all so far)

Now I'm tired and I think I'll head to bed to read until I fall asleep.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

It's started!

The construction workers started on the basement today! Heard the knock on the door at 6:39 am! Ugh! Good thing I was expecting them (at 7). I thought they were going to take measurements and get materials and such. Well, he told me they couldn't deliver the materials until tomorrow, so they went and got them. They have my mom's room and the bathroom framed! I was amazed they got so much done after emptying the basement and going to get the stuff. I'll post progress pictures as I take them. (I dont have the cord for my camera here at the moment.)

I've been wondering how some people can eat so few calories for dinner. I'm now discovering the secret. Tonight we had roast beef. I had no clue it was only 120 calories for 4 oz. Then, instead of having mashed potatoes, which would be a staple with roast beef, we had brown rice. And carrots. 260 calories for my entire meal. I know I'm low on calories tonight. I really needed another snack tonight, but I just dont feel like it and had too much going on.

Today:
B: english muffin with egg and cheddar cheese, clementine
Sn: yogurt
L: tuna salad (tuna, egg, onion, celery, mayo) on cucumber slices
Sn: cheese, apple sauce
D: roast beef, rice, carrots

Total: 1050

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Just Another Day

Still nothing exciting to report. Oh, except maybe that they're starting on the basement remodel tomorrow! Its not ready for them, but he said he'll be here anyway. :) Nice to have that underway.

As of right now I'm off tomorrow, so I'm going to straighten up the upstairs, then start bringing up boxes from the basement to go through. I think I need to start with the clothes...some need packed up for my step-cousin, some are probably still good for the girls, some need donated... I just need them not sitting around the basement. Once the washer and dryer get moved up here, I'll have to be more organized about it.

Today:
B: oatmeal, PB, orange juice
Sn: clementine, boiled egg
L: salad with turkey, tomato, feta cheese and RC dressing
Sn: yogurt
D: Chicken, brown rice, cabbage
Sn: cottage cheese

Total: 1340

Tomorrow will be my first official weigh in. Week 2 is not being as nice as week 1. Thankfully I was fully expecting that. :)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Tired

I was so tired today. I had a hard time falling asleep, then woke up a lot through the night. At least today wasn't too bad.

My mom and brother came just as I got home from work. They stayed til 9pm, so no exercise for me tonight. I will start the shred tomorrow! I want to be done before I go to the waterpark!

Today:

B: oatmeal with banana and PB
Sn: cheese stick (had a clementine too but ran out of time)
L: salad with ham, tomatoes, cheese and RF dressing/grilled cheese from school
Sn: yogurt
D: fish, cauliflower with cheese sauce, unsweetened applesauce
One square of my dad's homemade fudge
Sn: egg and apple

Total: 1050 plus the grilled cheese and fudge

I learned something today. When you are eating clean, your body rebels when you eat something it doesnt like. After I ate the grilled oozing cheesy melty goodness that was from the school cafeteria, my stomach grumbled, churned, and cramped all afternoon. Lesson learned.

Monday, January 9, 2012

I hate titles

I never know what to title each post....

Just a quick one tonight. I tried to up my calories just a bit today because I think I've been on the low side.

Today:
B: Oatmeal with PB and banana
Sn: yogurt
L: salad with turkey, egg, tomato, vinegar and oil
Sn: cheese and cutie
D: chicken corn chowder
Sn: cottage cheese

Total: 1325

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Adjusting

Sundays are going to be my struggle days. Almost every Sunday my extended family gets together for lunch after church. We've been doing this as long as I can remember...and I love it. However, I cant say we have the most healthy lunches. And when one is very consciously watching what they're eating and trying to lose weight, this is not a good day for lunch with family. Right now I'm doing modified SBD. I'm not really doing a strict phase one, but doing more of a lower carb/higher protein/counting calories kind of thing.
Lunch today consisted of lasagna, garlic bread and salad. Oh my it smelled good at my mom's. But, I resisted. Not even a bite. I knew we were having salad, so I took turkey to put on it. My aunt brought boiled eggs to add. I was fortunate to find reduced calorie dressing in my mom's fridge because I forgot to take mine. It was a good lunch for me.
I was in charge of dessert today, so I thought I'd try to find something maybe I could try. My first thought was something fruit based. So I searched for some recipes and found a mixed berry cobbler that looked good. It had no sugar (sweetened with apple juice) and only 1/2 C whole wheat flour. So I baked that up this morning. I had planned to figure the calories into my day, and possibly even add icecream.
After lunch no one was hungry for dessert, so we decided to go see my grandpa. Since no one had eaten any dessert, I decided to bring it home and freeze it for next week. So I dont know if it was any good. Smelled and looked good though! I really think it was God's way of telling me I'm not ready for anything that sweet yet. :)

Sundays are hard for another reason too. Nothing is on schedule. I ate breakfast at normal time, but that means I should have my first snack during church. I'm not so sure the pastor would appreciate that, lol. So I talked to my mom right after church and she wasnt sure if we were eating right away or visiting my grandpa first, so I didnt snack. We ended up eating at 1, which was WAY too long for me to wait (breakfast at 8) and I was starving! I've gotten used to eating every 3 hours now. But the rest of the day went ok.

I'm still running just a bit on the low side on calories. I think I might throw a banana in my oatmeal when I have that for breakfast. Maybe something else in there somewhere too.

Today:
B: oatmeal with PB
L: salad with turkey and egg, reduced calorie dressing
SN: apple and cheese stick
D: 2 scrambled eggs with turkey sausage crumble, cauliflower with cheese sauce
Sn: cottage cheese

Total: 1005 Calories

Tomorrow is on to week 2. :)

Friday, January 6, 2012

TGIF!

No joke, I couldn't be any happier that today is Friday. Considering this was only a 4 day work week, it was a looooong one for sure. Tuesday and Wednesday were good, but Thursday and Friday were never ending stress days. Sigh...

I guess its good I kept busy though. No time to sit around at home and look at the leftover goodies from Christmas. Tomorrow I'm going to package things up and put them in the freezer for when guests come. I've been good though and had nothing at all. And since my dad's homemade fudge is sitting on the counter taunting me, I'd say this is a huge accomplishment! (That's the only chocolate fudge I really like.)

Today:

B: oatmeal with PB
Sn: string cheese and cutie
L: salad with turkey, tomato, drizzled with vinegar and oil
D: tuna with egg, mayo, onion, celery, tomato on cucumber slices
Sn: popcorn

Total: 1010 calories
And good again on water (Still need to do a bit better, but at least its progress)

Tomorrow I'm hoping to start the 30 day shred. I really wanted to start tonight, but I havent been this exhausted in a long time. I dont think I could give it even half my all, lol.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

This is Hard

Overall this isnt so hard, but today was hard, and tomorrow will be as well. When I'm on my schedule, I have time to sneak in my snacks. When I'm subbing, no such luck. (At least not in the class I'm teaching today and tomorrow.) The kids have their special first thing in the morning, and I've basically just eaten breakfast then, and I dont have another break until lunch (12:20). So no snacking. I cant really be reading to them or asking questions while eating. I was quite hungry by lunch today. Ugh! Like stomach growling hungry.
The afternoon wasn't quite as bad because it was only about 3 hours from lunch until school was out, so I could have a snack then. So we'll see if I can figure out something for the morning tomorrow. (The kids are taking a test, so maybe I can sneak something at my desk.)

Today:
B: oatmeal w/1 Tbsp peanut butter
L: salad with turkey and tomato drizzled with vinegar and oil
Sn: boiled egg and apple
D: tilapia with brown rice and vegetables
Sn: cottage cheese

Total: 1095
I did really well on water today finally!

So glad tomorrow is Friday!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Still Trying

I think I need to add a few calories to my day. The thing is, I'm eating 6 times a day, not getting hungry, and eating healthy. So.... ???

Today:
B: 2 eggs scrambled with 1/4 c turkey sausage crumbles, diced onions/peppers/tomatoes
Sn: Yogurt
L: salad with turkey and tomatoes drizzled with vinegar and oil
Sn: RF string cheese and an apple
D: Turkey burger with tomato, brown rice, green beans
Sn: 1 C cottage cheese

Total: 1100

Also did 60 minutes of dancing with Michael Jackson on the wii. ;)

Hoping I dont have more to add to my worries than just what I eat. Went out to leave for work this morning and the van wouldnt start. Sigh... Went and got a new battery tonight, and I hope that fixes the problem. Please let that fix the problem...

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Headaches

I hate having headaches. I get them regularly enough as it is, but this is day 2 of the detox headache. I know its all for the better, but I sure hate feeling this way.

I also hate when I do stupid things like get completely away from what I know works. I was having my salad for lunch today, and it just tasted soooo good. So why do I get away from that? Probably because I get lazy and just grab whatever is easy. I know eating healthy takes a bit more time, but its so worth it. I just need to keep plugging along.

Today was another pretty good day. The kids were actually really good at school, so I didnt feel the stress I thought I might being the first day back from break.

And food was good too. Its really a struggle to resist temptations. I realize how much I snack and pick here and there. Like taking a fry off Livi's tray at lunch. Or eating the crackers and dip in the workroom. It all eventually adds up, so I avoided it all today. That being said, I really have to plan breakfast better. Its probably the hardest meal for me to eat healthy. I need some new ideas that are SBD friendly. (I did have oatmeal with PB today, which was good and not too bad on calories.)

B: oatmeal with 1 Tbsp peanut butter
Sn: boiled egg
L: salad with turkey, drizzled with vinegar and oil
Sn: yogurt
D: steak, brown rice, broccoli and cauliflower
Sn: popcorn

Total calories: 1110 Still a little low. But I ate a TON for dinner and it was only 375 calories!
I still need to do better on water.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Happy New Year

Its been awhile since I posted, but with computer issues, school functions, holidays, etc, time just got away from me. We took down the Christmas decorations today, family has all gone home, holidays are over, a new year has begun, so its time to get this thing back up and running.

I always hear lots of talk about resolutions at this time of year, but I'm not going to set any for myself. Resolutions tend to get broken, or pushed aside, so I'm just going to set some goals for myself.

In the past, I've always started with weight loss. I never set a number though. I figured it was just better to eat healthy and exercise and see what happens. Well, nothing seems to happen. So its time to get a bit more specific. This first week is pretty much a detox. I have felt so so so crappy over the last month or so...I've gotten away from the healthier eating, and I've noticed so many of the bad side effects creeping back in. I have horrible headaches for 3-5 days during TOM. (I know I wont get rid of these entirely, but they were markedly better when eating healthier.) My face is breaking out more, and never fully clearing up. My skin is dry. (I'm not getting enough water.) I have no energy and feel run down all the time.
Today was a good day. I'm trying to stay on a slightly modified SBD phase 1 program for 2 weeks. Then I'll go from there. I will have a bit of brown rice, and maybe a little fruit here and there, but I really want to get the crap out of my body, and get rid of the cravings. I'd also like to stay around 1200 calories each day, but will be ok to go up to 1500. I might reconsider this plan in the near future though.
And I'm picking a number. I have some events coming up and I WILL be (a little) thinner and healthier by then. The first is February 16th. I will lose 20 lbs by then. Not I want to or I hope to, but I will. I think having a number to shoot for will tell me how much harder I have to work, and will keep me from slacking.
The second number is 50 lbs lost by my birthday (end of May). I know these wont be easy, and hopefully not impossible. But they're where I'm starting my goals for this year. Once my birthday gets here, I'll set the next goals based on what I accomplished by then.
I dont usually put things like this out there, but I feel like it will help me be (and stay) accountable. I tend to fall off the wagon way to easily. I've told some of my family about this too, since we have Sunday dinners together and I may be bringing my own food to some of these lunches. Those are by far the hardest days for me, so if I'm prepared, I should do better.

I also want to start the 30 day shred next week. The February goal is because I'm going with a friend to an indoor water park, and being down some pounds by then will help. I think the shred will help tone by then too. I wanted to start today, but I figure I'll have a detox headache most of this week, and I just cant exercise with a headache. At all.

As far as other goals go: Move more. Not just exercise, but get out from behind this computer! I love my computer, but I need to break the bond we share.
Keep up on the housework. I hate when I find out someone is coming over and its a major undertaking to get the house in shape. I also expect my kids to do better at this too. I want to start doing a once-over before they go to bed to keep things picked up and put away. Same with the car---when we get home, grab something that needs to go in the house.

One other big goal: I'd like to have my teaching license reinstated by the end of the school year. At this point, realistically I'm not sure thats possible, but if not, then at least by the end of the year. That should be doable (provided I find somewhere to get the money for classes). I just really need to get that part of my life in order too.

Edited to add my daily food. Just wanted to see where I stood for today:
B: Greek yogurt 130 (normally I'd have something else too, but this was late today)
Sn: String cheese 60
L: Tuna 100 Egg 70 Mayo made with olive oil 90 (onion and celery) all mixed and served on cucumber slices 20 Total: 280
D: pork 260 and sour kraut 20
Sn: more pork and sour kraut 280
Total for Monday: 1030 Yikes, a little low for me. I dont feel hungry though, but will add a little more tomorrow.

Until next time, have a good one!