Thursday, July 15, 2010

Just Letting it Out

I cant sleep. Lots on the mind tonight.

I hate depending on people. I mean, I know we need to to some extent. But I hate that I have to depend on other people for a place to live, utilities, food, a car, etc. It really has me down tonight. There have been unexpected expenses come up in the last week, and I hate that I have to ask for help. Even if its not financial...just the need for someone to fix the van. It really puts a HUGE dent in the self worth. And like mine doesnt already suffer...

I'm trying to make changes. Some days its really tough, because things dont happen quite fast enough for me. Its hard to see a difference from day to day. Just trying to remember the big picture...

I've also decided I need more *girl* friends...ones who like chick flicks, lol. There are some movies coming out that I'd like to see, and I'm sure the girls wont want to go see them. Not sure how many of my friends are in to those kinds of movies either. I need some sappy friends. :) Now just where to find them???

This is a rather negative post, but I just needed to vent. I'm well aware that I have a LOT to be thankful for. Sometimes too much negativity clouds my mind for awhile, and I just need to take a moment to remind myself whats really important.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Happy Heart

We went to see Grandpa today, and its the best I've seen him yet. He was just getting finished with a haircut when we got there. We went back to his room to visit for awhile, and he was really awake and alert and looked really good. He played ball with Livi for awhile and was even joking with the girls. Then we went outside and walked around for a bit. He really wanted to get up once we got outside. I hope he gets to the point where he can.
Aunt Jackie was going to see if she can get something to help hold his teeth in. He's so hard to understand when he tries to talk, and I think that would help. They have a meeting today to see what the nursing home has to say---how they can help, how much they think they can do for him, etc.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Catchin' Up

Didnt realize I let this get so far behind....

Lets start with Grandpa. They did the trach, he moved to the rehab floor for a few weeks, they took the trach out, and he's now at Smithville-Western nursing home for rehab. He's doing ok now, but had a bit of a setback a couple weeks ago when he came down with pneumonia. Mom and the aunts have a meeting with the nursing home people on Wednesday to get a prognosis, what they think they can do, etc. I guess then they'll go from there.

Its been hot. Really hot. And with no a/c, its. been. hot. We've done a bit of swimming, and went to a movie this week to stay cool for a couple hours. We had VBS all last week and it was quite miserable in the sanctuary. We had a record number of kids (97), and they didnt seem to mind. It was a good time.

I'm trying to plan a short trip with the girls...I'm thinking about going camping for a couple days somewhere...maybe Lake Erie. I just need to get something planned and do it.